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Friday, February 09, 2007
ive been feeling weird recently. like neither happy nor sad. and ive been feeling tired lately, for what reason i dont know. perhaps it's the thinking that drains me mentally as usual.
today we had like a short presentation on thaipusam [sp?] and i was just thinking, sometimes we as Christians take things for granted dont we? okay maybe instead of we i shall use i. i dont know, i mean having been going to church since young, and having the priviledge of knowing the one and only true God since the start, perhaps ive been taking it all for granted. like for hindus, they have thaipusam and for muslims they have their fasting month, for buddhist [see miao im spelling it correctly (:] they become vegetarians. and do all these to show their devotion and what not. im not saying that we should start becoming like them, but if you asked me to hook stuff on my body and pierce things through my tongue and my cheeks, i doubt i'll do that. which is why sometimes when i look at the other religions and the things they do to show their devotion, i feel so ashamed of myself. i mean doing qt every single day is difficult for me already despite it being a routine and all, there's always this struggle, as homework starts coming and i need to handle my commitments in various areas. there's the whole thing about there being 24 hours each day, and how much time do you give to/ spend with God. i dont think im putting myself across well enough but i hope you get my point which frankly, i have no idea what my main point is.
borrow origins of species by charles darwin from the school library today. ive got a lot of books to read over the chinese new year holidays. im praying that it wont mess up my mind but do exactly the contrary- strengthen my faith and give me a better understanding of evolution so i know what to say in class when there's something i dont agree with. i shall finish case for a creator first, so at least ive some sort of a foundation before go on reading about evolution, lest it kills my mind.
im getting worried about various things these few days for some reason. and i cant pinpoint what it is exactly, because im absolutely clueless. like ive got this feeling something[s] bad will happen. intuition.
on another note, valentines day next week. ive got to start writing notes/ save my smses so i can send smses on valentines day. the guys are coming over tomorrow, im hoping they'll manage to cheer me up haha. i miss them a lot. im missing many people.
i just scrolled up to the top and scanned through, i realised that my paragraphs are totally unlinked to one another.
peiling is exhausted. and misses the beach a lot.
peiling wants someone to go to the beach with her. it's one of the rare times when peiling rather have something along with her then go there alone. anyone? brandon, no it's okay you've been really busy and you've not been getting enough sleep, you will not go with me okay.
simplicity.
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peiling
30 march
christian
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